A few months ago I started blogging again after a two year break of having nothing to say. I started telling my story as part of my recovery from my own life. I put myself on a schedule to post every Saturday. This gives me a set plan to accomplish something weekly at a given time. It helps. Having a schedule for posting to my blog gives me a weekly goal and motivation to get it done. This whole thing is designed to be my therapy, to help me along my way. I share my story in case it helps someone else.
But this week is different. Usually by Thursday each week I have my blog post complete, uploaded to drafts, just waiting for Saturday. A couple times I’ve had two blogs at a time ready to go. But not this week. It’s Saturday morning (U.S.) and I’m just now starting. I’ve thought all week about what to write but nothing. Actually, I have thought of a few things, but nothing I wanted to share here just yet. I have a lot on my mind, but I’m having so much trouble putting it all in order. And not to mention the book I’ve been writing, I haven’t worked on that in a couple weeks either. This is so much more than writer’s block, it’s life.
I have my plate full as far as life goes right now. But overall I’m doing ok with it, just going through some changes in life. I am now on a regular sleep schedule for the first time in at least three years. For the last five weeks since my wife moved out, certain things have fallen into place for me. I get up early every morning to get the kids to school. I don’t stay up late anymore. I haven’t been to the VFW for drinks since she left. I’m not sure if I have a plan or if I’m taking everything one day at a time, but I feel pretty good about most things right now. But I don’t feel good about not being able to write or compose my thoughts, but I know that will fall into place soon enough. Or eventually. It has too. I write, it’s what I do.
I pride myself on my writing. Not because I think I’m some great writer, but because I spend time on it, work on it, make sure it’s good enough to share. This week, not so much. I’ve got nothing. I’m just kind of making this up as I go along this time. I don’t like posting this way, but I put myself on a schedule and if I want to keep that schedule I have to put something on my blog today. So, here it is. I know it sucks, but next week will be a better post. I know it will. But thanks for taking the time to read today. Good day, God bless.
Dave
Writing IS how I collect my thoughts. It’s a beautiful process, Submit to it. Everytime I don’t understand how I feel, I write it down, reread it and then I understand it. OR I continue this process until I do or I feel okay about it. Either way it gets better for me once I understand where my feelings are coming from. Good luck.
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Wise words, thank you.
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It didn’t suck, it was very inspirational. I liked it. A good way to get your thoughts together is to just write on a piece of paper without thinking.
Just let your hand flow. Great post!
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Thanks. I will always be my own toughest critic. Which honestly I use to my advantage.
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Don’t beat yourself up. We all have moments when the words don’t flow. Or you’re not quite ready to write about a particular topic. And then sometimes it’s the complete opposite. I like to think it evens out somewhere along the way. Those words will come out when they’re ready.
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Yep, very true. So, just like my recovery, my writing won’t always be great. Thanks for the revelation.
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Kudos to you for staying on your schedule! I find even making a schedule for myself is just plain hard these days! Keep it up and stick with it, we’re all glad to hear from you no matter what you say. 😊
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I’ll still try to come up with more entertaining next week. 🙂 Thanks for the support.
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I write for the same reasons; part therapeutic, part wanting to help others. I have to say that writing offers me a way to express myself in ways that just having a conversation can’t. You’ll move forward and find things to write about again! I can’t wait ❤
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Exactly. Writing is much better than a verbal conversation sometimes. I can double check my thoughts easier before hitting ‘send’ than when I speak out loud. 🙂
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Exactly, and you have more time to word things perfectly without awkward silences. lol
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Thank you for being human, authentic, and relatable. It will come.
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Thank you. 🙂
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You have something to write about no matter how small. Today you didn’t have a plan, and that was the thought you had and needing to express.
You are on a pattern and solid routine because that is what good parents do when life needs taken care of. You put all the shit aside and do your job.
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I know. And I wasn’t trying to complain about it. It’s just one of the adjustments for the better right now. I recognize that.
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You’re doing great!
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I feel like I’m going pretty good. Great might be a stretch, but thanks for the vote of confidence.
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Well I’m a year & a half on the other side & the footwork you’re doing will lead to great 🙂
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🙂 Hope so.
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Me too 🙂
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Honest and raw. Some days we are not our best, we are just good enough. And that’s okay.
Keep your chin up, keep to your schedule and you will get there.
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That’s the plan. 🙂 Thanks.
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Dave…Dave…Dave…I just a lot of something so don’t discount yourself as a writer just because its not planned. I don’t plan anything I write, the idea just comes and write what’s there. I know what it’s like though not to be in the flow, a couple posts I wrote this week were hard to write and it was hard to get the words to come together but I did it anyway. Don’t worry just write what comes from the heart. If you don’t have a subject that’s ok, just sit down and write what’s waiting to be written.
Shelley
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Thanks.
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Since I cant edit, the first line should say: I just read a lot of something…Oooopps..there goes the perfectionist in me….lol
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No probs, keep up the good work….:)
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Hey, a lot of write about not being able to write! It’s fairly common! 🙂 You actually said a lot in this post. A lot of very positive upbeat things. I was very glad to read it and hear it. Just keep your heart, mind and eyes open. Then the words will come. Don’t try to force them. Stories are everywhere my friend! 🙂 ❤
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I’ve got stories. I’m just not sure what I want to share sometimes. That’s what I was going through last week. I think I’ve already got my idea for the next one. Maybe I’m back on track. But the book I’m writing still sits in my computer, collecting cyber dust. Lol.
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Just share!
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Yep.
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Your honesty and willingness to write about exactly where you were at that point in time actually did make for a good post. Hang in there!
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I think despite your writer’s block you still managed to stick to your plans. You’re getting regular sleep! that’s a big one. So important and easier said than done….no drinks, getting the kids off to school…lots on your mind…things to process and yet here you are getting through the day and still making time for your readers….all you need to do now is let life take its course a little bit and trust me…the urge to write will just hit you and you if you’re like me you won’t be able to stop for a little while…and then….nothing….and then….something…lol you get the idea 🙂 Have an awesome weekend Dave! 🙂
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🙂 Thanks, you too.
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